[A sigh.] Well...I was sort of wigging out at the time. I mean...I don't know, some people seem able to just shrug that sort of thing off, no big deal. But I wasn't. I had a lot of complicated feelings about it, more than I have about most things, to be honest, which is nonzero, and I sort of convinced myself that I wanted to feel how a lot of different people made me feel, and also that I wanted to see if it felt as weird with someone I hadn't been with before. And then you were there.

So. It was nothing really to do with you, and that was incredibly shitty of me, and I'm sorry.